Today is the Day

I have an appointment today for a skin biopsy for a rash that’s developed on my legs. Sounds innocent enough, except that certain rashes and lesions are indicative of leukemia (who knew?). I had the “bad” one before, when I first went in the hospital. This new one is similar, but not identical to what I had before. So, we’ll get it tested and wait for the results. My blood tests are all good and there is no detectable sign of cancer in my blood. This, plus the fact that I FEEL GREAT, are all positive signs. I feel like I’m not sick at all, although I’m not quite ready to go running again. The four-mile walks will suffice for now.

I’ve often described this trial as a roller coaster. Christi had a better description the other day when she said it’s like riding a roller coaster blindfolded, so you have no idea when the peaks and valleys and corkscrews and upside-down loops are coming. Worse yet, you have no idea when it will end. That’s it. That’s what this feels like.

Today is another day on the roller coaster. Right now, we’re on level ground, but we know that’s about to change. The question is will the track go up, toward the sky, with shouts of thanksgiving from the passengers? Or, will it unexpectedly plunge downward, sending our stomachs into our throats, crying to our Deliverer for mercy yet again?

But today is also the day the Lord has made. Regardless of what the doctors say, we will rejoice and be glad in it. Today is another day that God will hold true to his promises because his Word says so. Today, we will praise him and trust him for healing and deliverance. He is the same today and will be no matter how long we’re on this roller coaster, no matter which way it turns.

I don’t know for sure where I’ll sleep tonight, but I know that I won’t be alone. Today may be harsh or cruel, but it won’t determine our future. Our future is in the hands of the Creator, which are much bigger than today.